Wednesday, May 12, 2010

anger management for dreams

I woke up absolutely furious at a few people this morning.  All because of a dream.  I don't recall all the details, but it was at our old house, on Creekwood Lane.  My family was there, mom, dad, brother, sister, and an aunt and uncle.  We were starting dinner when guests started arriving for a community meeting.  I don't remember why, but my dad started getting really mad at me, and created a scene by losing his temper.  Then he tried goading me, so no one was taking me seriously.  It made me upset that I had a legitimate issue and no one seemed to care.  Then, to make matters worse, my sister took a bottle of ranch salad dressing and poured it on my head.  I am not a violent person, but in my dream I turned around and slapped her hard.  Then I went upstairs to shower myself with cherry coke (to remove the dressing?  I don't know why)  and leave.  I tried to find my mom, to find out why she didn't help me and why things had gotten so horrible, but she had slipped away to avoid more confrontation.  Instead I found my husband, and I was furious at him for not helping me.  I climbed into his red truck and demanded he drive me home.  He was very apologetic in my dream but I was having none of it...and then my alarm went off.  I woke up just feeling angry.  It was very bizarre.  As I got my breakfast ready this morning, the angry feeling dissipated,  and I ended up feeling confused as to how to feel.  I guess tired is the best choice.  4:30 in the morning is just way too early to get up, but at least I have a job, and my shift ends at 2, so that's ok.  I'm still in orientation so things are really overwhelming right now, and I'm really looking forward to a relaxing weekend. 

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